14 March 2012

An Absence

My presence has not been known for a great deal on this blog. I had promised before to update as frequently as possible, even if I didn't have anything fresh to write about, no new recipes or if no extremely photogenic opportunities passed my way. A little note to say hello would suffice, but I haven't even managed to do that. My passion for writing, creating and enjoying most things was greatly diminished this last December and I am just now beginning to see remnants of the old me come to surface. I have had vivid dreams of myself painting incredibly vibrant and happy images and having the feeling of accomplishment in doing so. I think this is a sign that I am ready to embrace happiness once more. I know that this may be a bit dramatic to those that don't know me very well or were unaware of my heartbreak in December. I wouldn't expect most to know as I kept to myself. I had to do something I knew I would eventually have to but never wanted ever to do. I had to put an end to the suffering of my best friend and if there is such a thing as an animal soul mate, my sweetest companion Adelaide.

Addie was the best dog I had ever met. The sweetest pup with the most unbelievable heart. She loved unconditionally, and I myself only wish I could be as accepting as she was. I think of her everyday and I still cry very often when I do think of her. She was my light and the greatest part of me. I miss her as one misses a lost limb, I will never be fully recovered. For those who do not have animal companions I know this may seem silly, but I have never wanted children, I prefer to have furry friends. Adelaide was my child and I loved her so.

I do not intend for this post to upset anyone just explain my absence. I will be returning to the blogging world, I just needed a moment to catch my breath time to reflect on what is most important to me. I hope I am welcome back here in the world of those with a creative voices and ability to make magic out of food, clothes, canvas and blank computer screens. I have missed you.








my tribute to Adelaide

5 comments:

  1. I am so sorry for your loss. I completely understand the heartache. I'm sending a hug your way. Maybe Addie and Max are playing catch together now :)
    <3

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  2. I know I've already mentioned how sorry am I but I too can slightly relate as one of my kitties just recently passed too. I'm glad that your back to blogging but even more happy that you have your shit together and your priorities in line...you can't fake that and I love that about you.
    Miss you / Love you!

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  4. Love the tattoo. Sorry to hear you lost your baby and your friend. I have three dogs, one of whom is getting very old. I fear we will be saying goodbye to him soon and it breaks my heart every time that thought crosses my mind. Love and heart healing vibes from San Diego. <3

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  5. that little tattoo is the sweetest thing.
    i do know how you feel, the depth of that sadness ♥

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